Chapter 13: A Name For Girls Like That

John loved riding the motorcycle back to Jersey. He felt for the first time in a long time, so free and in control of his own life. He knew Ashley was the reason for his good fortune. He hated the Limelight club, and the only reason he went there tonight, was because she was going. He wasn't ready to go home so he detoured toward Bradley Beach.

He parked the motorcycle.

They got off the Harley and he grabbed her hand when she stumbled a little.

"Thanks." She smiled at him.

 "I hope it's okay I stopped here. I just wanted to spend a little more time alone with you.

"It's fine. I love it here."

They walked over to the water. "God I'm on such a high from winning the Harley. I feel like I could do anything."

"You should go to the casino, you are probably really lucky tonight."

"Am I lucky enough for you to let me kiss you again?" This is our spot you know. Where you let me kiss you the first time. Please don't say no."

"How can I say no to that."

John leaned over and started kissing her slowly. Her mouth was warm and inviting. His tongue swirled around hers softly. His hands caressed her and roamed her body. She felt so right in his arms.

A car driving by startled her and brought her back to reality. Even though this guy was perfect and made her have feelings  she had never felt before, he was already taken. "I have to stop this." She thought.

She pulled back. "What's wrong baby?"

"We got carried away. That car could of been anybody maybe even Dorothea."

"Don't bring her up. Tonight is perfect, because she's not here. I know I don't love her anymore. I wasn't sure and I realized it when you were out late with Richie, last night. Ashley it was killing me, the thought that you were with him. It felt like I couldn't breathe. I sat on my porch most of the night waiting for you to get home."

"I'm sorry, John. I didn't know you were waiting for me. We were watching a couple of bands play at Limelight."

"And flirting with Ace. Were you doing that too?"

"Why would you ask me that?

"I saw you with him tonight. You like him, I could tell. Do you like him more than me?"

"I won't lie to you, I don't know why, but I do like him a little. Not as much as I like you though."

"I told you he's bad news. Did he try to give you any drugs yet?"

"No but he did ask me if I had ever done blow. What is that, exactly?"

"Coke, cocaine baby. I told you he is a coke head. It will mess you up Ashley, he wants you high so he can try to sleep with you. That's why he was taking you back to his place."

 She laughed a little. Well I wasn't going to sleep with him, that's for sure."

"Baby if you get high on coke, you wouldn't care what he did to you. Please stay away from him. Don't go back to Limelight. It's not a safe place for you."

"Okay, I won't."

John was looking at her and wanting to tell her he knew her little secret but he wasn't sure how to bring it up.

"Why are you staring at me like that?" She asked.

He took her hands and held them in his.

"I've got to tell you something."

"Okay what is it?" She asked.

"Ashley I don't understand why you felt like you couldn't tell me something that's so important about you. I can't believe you told Richie you were a virgin and not me."

"Oh God, Richie said he wouldn't tell anybody. I am so embarrassed." She closed her eyes, wishing she could hide.

 "Why? I'm glad you've never slept with anybody. Girls think guys want them to have a lot of experience, but it's not true. For me anyway, it turns me off if the girl's been with a lot of guys."

"But I've heard about you John, you've been with a lot of girls and I'm positive they weren't all virgins. I've seen the girls pawing at you at the Fast Lane and some of them look like they've been around the block a few times."

He laughed. "Yeah some of them have." They're okay to party with after a show. But, I swear to you, I wouldn't ever date them, or take them home to meet my Mom. I don't even bother getting their phone number."

"So they are good enough to fool around with but not good enough to have a relationship with? Is that what you're saying?"

"Something like that, yeah."

"That doesn't make any sense to me. It should be about who you have feelings for not how many people they've had sex with."

"Yeah but if she's so easy, then probably anybody can have her and that turns me off in a girlfriend. I mean I don't want to take her to the club and look around and she's already had sex with half the guys there. Or guys looking at her thinking they could have her. I don't want to have an easy girl for my girlfriend."

"Yeah I guess that makes sense. But it seems like someone with little or no experience would be so boring for you to sleep with. I'm sure you have had both, so admit it, you think virgins are boring in bed."

"I guess I need to tell you something else?"

"Oh Lord, What?"

"I've never done it with a virgin?"

"You're kidding?"

"No, most of the girls, I've been with were older. And had already been with at least one guy."

"Even Dorothea."

"Yeah she has been with two other guys. She lost her virginity to my friend Bobby when they used to go out."

"Who was the other guy?"

"When we broke up, she went home with some guy from a bar and slept with him. Alex something, I can't remember."

"And she told you."

"Yeah she was proud of it. He was some older guy and he made her a lot of promises and shit and never called her."

"Wow, were you jealous?"

"I don't know why, but yeah I was. I got  back at her though. I went out with her best friend Erica."

"Richie's ex."

"Yeah, but he hadn't been with her yet."

"Did you sleep with her?"

"I could have, she wanted to. I told Dot that I did, but no we didn't. She's one of those girls that's been around. Like I said, it turns me off."

"But you've been with girls like that?"

"Some, but I couldn't ever get serious with them. It's only a one time kind of thing. I don't really even talk to them after or act like I even know them when I see them around."

"Oh my God! Were you just using them?"

"We were using each other. But I always used condoms. Dot is the only girl that I didn't have to, because, I know for sure she's on the pill."

"I'm on it too."

"You!" Why are you on the pill, if you're a virgin?"

"Oh this is embarrassing. My periods were really irregular, sometimes I wouldn't have one at all, or I would get one and it wouldn't stop. I was losing way too much blood, so the doctor put me on it last year and all my cycles are regular now."

"Oh okay. Dot's Mom put her on it because she didn't want her knocked up like her sister Colleen."

"Really? Lucky for you I guess." She turned and looked away a little jealous and not wanting to hear about Dorothea.

"Well I hate condoms, having sex with condoms on ain't the same thing."

"Can we please change the subject." She was getting a little irritated listening about his sex life with Dorothea

"I'm sorry, yeah."

"Can you take me home?"

"I don't want to, I like being here alone with you. What's wrong Ashley?"

"But we shouldn't be alone, John. You talk a good game, but you haven't broken up with her. You said you realized you didn't love her. What happened?"

"I don't want to tell you, it will probably piss you off."

"You might as well tell me."

"She wanted me to come over last night because her parents were gone out of town, so we could do it."

"Did you?" She asked with a jealous tone in her voice.

"I didn't want to. I was worried about you and what you were doing with Richie."

"But you went over there?"

"Yeah for a little bit."

"What happened?"

"We kissed and I didn't feel anything for her. I knew it was a mistake to even be there."

"Did you leave?"

"No not then."

"Why did you stay?"

"I really don't know."

"What happened next?"

"She wanted me to go to her room with her.  I told her I had to much shit on my mind, I couldn't have sex. She wanted to know what I was so worried about. I lied and told her it was some band stuff. But, it was one hundred percent you I was thinking of."

"Did you have sex with her John?"

"Yeah but all I could think about was you!"

It was over in about a minute, she knew I didn't want to be with her. I didn't kiss her or anything! She said she wanted me to spend the night. I told her I had to go home. She told me to get the fuck out! I just couldn't stay, I had to find out if you were home yet."

Ashley turned from him. She just sat there, sitting in the sand staring out at the water.

"Are you okay, Ash."

"You know, I try not to think about you and her together because it hurts me too much. But knowing you had sex with her just last night, while you were thinking of me, must be a new form of torture, because I didn't know simple words could hurt this much. Please just take me home now."

"No Ashley! I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to hurt you! But when I did it with her I realized, I don't love her anymore. She was no more to me than some random chick I screwed and never talked to again."

"My God, John! Just how many girls have you had sex with?"

"Oh no we're not getting into that right now! I have lost my feelings for Dorothea because I have new feelings for you. I want to be with you Ashley."

"And yet once again, you didn't break up with her."

"I'm not heartless Ash, I didn't want to dump her right after we had just fucked!"

Ashley shook her head. "I just can't listen to anymore of this, please take me home." She closed her eyes and took in a deep breath and let it out.

"No not until you listen to me, Ashley."

"What else is there?"

"Just this, I'm going to find her right now to break up with her and I want to be with you."

"I don't know John, I told you there's stuff you don't know about me."

"Richie told me everything. And I am so sorry your ex hurt you."

"Richie told me he wouldn't say anything. I didn't want you to know."

John looked into her big blue eyes. "Why Ashley? You should have told me. When I found out, I wanted to go find the dude and kill him. I was that pissed. I still am. Please know, that I would never hurt you or let anyone else hurt you. I would do anything for you, Ashley."

"That's why I don't want to rush into a relationship. I don't want somebody telling me what I can do. Or taking the chance of getting hurt again, if they cheat on me."

"God Ashley, I couldn't ever hurt you baby. The first time I saw you standing outside your Dad's I knew you were meant to be mine. Please say we can be together if I break up with Dot. If you want me to beg, I will."

"I just need some time. Please understand."

"Okay but I'm still breaking up with her.

"I'll take you home now, if you want."

"Okay, thanks."

They pulled up at Ashley's and got off the bike.

"I'm glad you went to the club with me tonight Ash. It felt so right being with you." He smiled.

"Thanks, I liked being with you too."

"I'll call you tomorrow and I'll come by and see you. The next time you see me I'll be single, I promise."

"Okay."

He gave her a sweet kiss on the lips and hugged her. "I've got to go." He walked back to his Harley and looked back at her, and drove off to find Dot.

He drove by her house and her car was gone. He knew where to find her. He pulled up at the pizza joint where she worked. He noticed her car parked on the side. He parked the Harley and went in.

"Hello Johnny." Bruno the owner welcomed him. "You haven't been in here in a while."

"No I haven't, I've been busy. Is Dot around?"

"She's not here, she got off hours ago. She doesn't really work nights anymore, for about the last two months."

John was sort of shocked. She had said she was working nights and staying late sometimes. He wondered. "What the fuck is going on?"

"Okay thanks, man." John got up and walked outside and went over to her car.
He didn't notice anything out of the ordinary, except she was nowhere around.

He heard a car coming up the street that he recognized. It was his ex best friend Bobby and sitting happily along side him was his missing girlfriend.

Dot got out in a short skirt, that she wasn't suppose to wear if John wasn't around. She rounded the car and leaned over in his window and kissed him, the way she used to kiss John. Bobby rubbed her under the skirt on her ass and she giggled.

John's temper was flaming. "Holy fuck! That bitch must have been cheating on me for a while! How the hell did I not notice this shit?" He thought.

He remembered the last couple of months how she was too busy working to see him. Then he wondered, who all knew? Am I the fucking town joke or what?" He thought.

She said her goodbye to Bobby and walked John's way. He stepped out from the darkness.

"So you're working late huh? Too busy to see me huh?"

"Johnny where did you come from?" Dorothea asked surprised.

"I came to see you and found out you don't even work at night anymore! Then I watched Bobby with his hand on your ass and your tongue down his throat and it just sort of all fell into place. You've been fucking around with Bobby!"

"I'm surprised you would even notice. It's not like you've had any time for me either!"

"So you go fuck your ex! Damn Dot, that's low, even for you!"

"Who are you to judge me? You fuck around all the time, you don't think I know, but I do!"

"How long have you been fucking Bobby?"

"Don't worry about it! You know he was the first guy I ever slept with and I still love him! The worst thing I ever did was cheat on him and leave him for you!"

"Well we can fix that now. He can have you back. You've always been easy. You were the easiest lay I ever had!"

"Good at least Bobby's a real man and not a wannabe rocker, Mama's boy like you!"

John laughed. "Yeah I love my Mama and she sure as hell was right about you. She hated me being with you she always said  I could do better. She told me if they cheat with you Johnny, they'll cheat on you. And look, she had you all figured out."

"I don't give a damn what she said. I can't stand your Mama. Look at you, you have no plans for the future and your parents don't even care! You should go out and get a real job like Bobby!"

"Fuck Bobby and you!" He can have your ass, you weren't ever that great in the sack anyway, I always hoped you get better!"

"Me! Bobby is way better in bed than you! What did you call that two second flash shit you pulled last night when we had sex huh?"

"I call it what it was, Dot. A pity fuck, because I felt sorry for you! I couldn't get into it because you don't turn me on anymore!"

"Well Bobby has his own apartment because he is a real damn man! I sure turned him on, because we had sex for hours there!"

This cut John to the straight to the bone. He had always trusted her.

He laughed. "And you fucked me last night, Dot. There's a name for girls like that. What was it? Oh yeah,......SLUT!" He emphasized.

"Oh you fucking bastard!" She screamed.

John walked over and climbed up on the Harley and drove away.

Leaving her standing there pissed and wondering where the hell he got a motorcycle from.

He couldn't go home, he was too upset. He needed a  stiff drink and a good friend to talk to. He pulled up at Richie's and parked next to his car. Richie heard the bike and opened the door.

"Hey man, what's up? He could tell by John's face something was wrong. "You were flying on cloud nine, the last time I saw you. What the hell happened?"

 "You ain't gonna believe this shit man!"

"Is something wrong with the Harley?"

"No it's fine. It's me that's messed up.

"Come in, you want a drink?"

"Hell yeah, the stiffer the better."

 "I got vodka and all sorts of shit on that table man."

"Start pouring it then."

"What happened?"

"I went looking for Dot, to break up with her. She's been lying to me, man. Her boss  told my she hasn't worked nights in a couple of months. Her car was still there, though. You'll never guess who I caught her fucking around with."

"Who?"

"Bobby, she's been seeing him for probably months!"

"Damn Johnny! Are you sure?"

"She told me! She pulled up with him."

"I didn't even know he was back in town."Richie replied.

"Me either. But he can have her ass. I went there to break up with her anyway. Then I found out the truth."

"Here man, here's the vodka, you want some orange juice with it?"

"Yeah what ever. I'm just so pissed that she was fucking lying to me! I know Bobby's just eating this up too. He was so pissed when she dumped him for me."

"Well you've been wanting to dump her, for a while now, so problem solved."

 "Yeah but I feel like a dumb ass, like I should have known something." John ran his hands through his hair.

I think you just really didn't care. You've been playing around yourself the last couple of months."

"And now with Ashley. She's a great girl. But do you really want to tie yourself back down? I mean don't you want to live it up a little? You don't have to sneak around anymore to do stuff you want to do. 

"Richie, I can't explain what she does to me."

"She doesn't want a boyfriend and she's got major trust issues. It might be a big problem sooner or later."

"Yeah, I guess. But I don't feel like I would cheat on her, though."

"Just wait til it's 3 a.m. your bored with her not having much experience in the sack and some hot young thing lays it out for you like a smorgasbord. How do you think you will feel then?"

"I don't know, man."

"And then there's Bret. Her feelings for him run deep. It's hard to compete with that."

"I guess you're right. I need to talk to her about all this shit before I try to get with her."

They started drinking screwdrivers and celebrating John being single.